Thursday, September 06, 2007

annoyance that i wasted almost the whole day away. travelling perhaps and just doing things u shouldnt be doing. not now at least. i think i m getting more accustomed to the fact that studying for prelims and a levels means u pretty much dont have a life. and looking at circumstances and people around me, i guess its a sacrifice that i have to undertake. willing or not, i have to do it anyway. so why not do it willingly. the most productive days were prolly tuesday and wednesday.

anyway. i was kinda thinking the other day. many of us in singapore. it doesnt matter if ur a hwa chong student or a pioneer jc student. often. academic pursuit usually takes precedence over everything else. our minds are often clouded with formulas, economic principles, facts data, facts data and more facts, data. and when we really do take a break for that, time is left for our own leisure, for our own indulgence. to spend with ourselves, with friends, if not spent resting. nowadays, as i read some of my own past to recent entries, almost everything has become a cycle, a sad cycle. blog entries mirror such, where everyday, u list the happenings from the time to wake to the seconds before bedtime. entries, void of reflection, void of feelings sometimes, much like our lives.

and i guess it affects this generation of students somewhat. i m so busy, that i forget birthdays i would usually remember(maybe its just me). we often study at places with disregard for its policies and people. even when faced with unreasonable accusations, we do not exercise reasoning but rather shy away, eager to find a place where we can continue our relentless mugging. we are increasing becoming shells of wad we used to be. likened to puppets that are made to dangle and forced to move by society's benchmark for achievement.

empathy is sorely lacking. love for those we know, and do not know, is clearly diminishing.

and i guess that being in a generation that calls for great expectations, both paying attention to the emotional and the objective sides, we need to increase our capacities. i feels its sad, to study away a jc life, ending with straight As, prolly screwing gp, cus we dont exercise rational thinking, but void of a heart and a mind full of largely redundant information. often makes me wonder how would i have turned out if i were an arts student, for i see a different type of appreciation toward science subjects, appreciation brought by profligacy of energy and only by attaining respectable grades. but for which i ironically have to admit, are the only ones i am thoroughly prepared for.

and then from here, we can probably see the subtle reasoning towards why teenagers are becoming increasingly wayward. and wayward does not necessarily mean stupid.

Innocence
The state, quality, or virtue of being innocent, as:
Freedom from sin, moral wrong, or guilt through lack of knowledge of evil.
Guiltlessness of a specific legal crime or offense.
Freedom from guile, cunning, or deceit; simplicity or artlessness.
Lack of worldliness or sophistication; naiveté.
Lack of knowledge or understanding; ignorance.
Freedom from harmfulness; inoffensiveness.

Virtue
Moral excellence and righteousness; goodness.
An example or kind of moral excellence: the virtue of patience
Chastity
A particularly efficacious, good, or beneficial quality; advantage: a plan with the virtue of being practical.
Effective force or power: believed in the virtue of prayer.
Obsolete. Manly courage; valor.

wasnt not too long ago when someone told me innocence is not virtue. virtue is innocence tested. innocence slips away because of misguided focuse. we pass the tests of economics, mathematics and chemistry with flying colours. sadly, we fail the test of innocence. leaving us sadly lacking in virtue.

|cowpoo| 9:57 PM|

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